My True Love

By: Erika Hulett 

I looked for you in the dark;

I went through hell and back a few times.

I confused you with strangers,

and I kissed some frogs.

I looked for you under sheets

and searched for you at the store.

I went back to hell

because after looking in heaven, 

you weren’t there.

I looked in my dreams

and at the bottom of bottles.

I searched for you on many lips

and in even more hearts…

I got tired and sat in loneliness, 

Just waiting for you to pass by.

I looked for you in hell,

and on mountains with hail,

Searched across oceans and time lines,

you were nowhere nearby.

I looked in his eyes

and in new warm arms. 

In promises and vows, 

but they didn't last.

I looked in the dark and in the light,

in the snow and the sun,

until I found myself alone.

I sat and cried, ready to die.

I couldn’t make the tears stop for a while…

I went to hell to burn all the past,

I went to heaven and prayed to forget.

I cleared my eyes and slowly stood,

and there you were in front of me…

It was in you that I found

what I had gone everywhere to find.

I couldn’t believe I finally have you;

I couldn’t believe I hadn’t seen you before.

I asked you in fear,

Are you here to stay?

I reached for you

But my hands met my reflection.

Here you were, in my eyes, all along:

with me in hell,

in me on the mountains,

with me at the door,

hugging me in tears,

That voice in my mind.

I loved you through it all...

when you were down,

when you stood tall,

when your pieces were too small to

just picked them up.

I cared for you in the dark;

I helped you survive.

I was in you the whole time.

And then I finally saw 

My true love...

came from me

all along.